Taxes on a Saturday night
How lame!
And it turns out I owe the government money — wasn’t expecting that to happen!
Geez, why does it feel so hard to get ahead? Am I not trying hard enough? Am I not playing smart enough? Does somebody know something I don’t? I thought being educated actually counted for something. Sigh.
Overall, my weekend thus far has been pretty low-key, as I’m still recovering from adventures in Vegas. Sometimes vegging out in front of the TV just feels really good. I watched three episodes of HBO’s new series, John Adams, and also caught up on the last episode of Lost and several episodes of Eli Stone.
I also watched Horton Hears a Who today, and loved it. I cried a little at the ending. God, I don’t understand how I can get so emotional at the stupidest things!
I snack way too much and need to get back on track with a healthy diet. And exercise is also key. I can’t wait for it to get sunny out so I can run around and play … I get back from Vegas and two days later it’s SNOWING here! Which is old hat for any East-coasters but at least you guys get sun when it’s cold out. I never knew there were so many shades of gray until I moved to Seattle.
My brother might be moving out of my mom’s house someday soon — and that spare room is such a tempting option. Live in Hawaii with my mom, a cushy lifestyle in paradise. But I know there’s not much left for me there — little to no intellectual stimulation, for one.
I guess I can wait until I’m older to retire in warmth. I am hoping for so much more out of life, but I’m not sure of what I want or where I’m going. Even though it’s degrading, I can understand why it’s so easy for women to marry for money (or vice versa). Financial security is a nice thing to have; and I suppose the fear of losing what little I have holds me back from taking more risks. The fact that I’m interested in many things doesn’t help. I wish I could be gung-ho about one thing and pursue it — especially in this competitive world where there is always pressure to specialize.
Sometimes it feels like I don’t really fit in anywhere — which is frustrating, because I know I am capable of so much.
And there I went, full circle. :-p
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